Today....

Today I felt even more worthless than I usually do. I felt stupid too.

I was told that I need to stop living in the past, and that if I want my life to be better then I should make it that way. I felt really stupid, because they were acting like my past was no big deal, that I should just get over it, that made me so mad, that they would just act like it wasn't a big deal. But they're right. It's the past, I can't do anything about it. I need to just get over it. I need to just move on from it. I can't forget it, and it would be stupid to try and forget. I don't even want to forget it, it made me who I am. I just need to move on from it, and not let it control me anymore.

To the person who said that to me - I'm sorry that I was a bitch about it. I really didn't mean to, I was just mad, for what turned out to be no reason. I hope you can forgive me for that, but it's fine if you can't, I understand. You were right though. I love you.


On a different note. I read relatively a lot today, compared to how much I have been reading. I've been meaning to start reading more again. I used to read a lot, and then I sort of stopped. I don't really know why. I'm going to start reading again. Right now I'm reading a book called The Wishing Garden. It's good, about this dysfunctional family, and a dying grandfather. Yup.


On another completely different note. I read a blog that Adam posted today, about what his plans are after high school, and I realized that I don't have plans or goals, and I think that I should get some. But there is a problem, I'm not really good at very many things, so I don't know what it is that I should make my goal. The things I'm good at are Drawing, Math, Mechanics, and Writing. So maybe you guys could help me and give me some career options that use those skills? I have thought of a few Tattoo artist, mechanic, architect. I'm a fast learner, so if the job takes more skills than I have, I can learn them fairly easily. I don't know. Oh well, I have 3 more years to figure it out.

Love and Affection - Sara Lynn