What I want.

I want a boy. One who respects me. I want a boy who loves me endlessly. I want a boy who is honest and caring. I want a boy who will just hold me when I have a bad day until I feel better. I want a boy who will tell me anything, and who I can tell everything to. I want a boy who is nice to my friend, even when he doesn’t like them. A boy my brothers approve of. I want a boy who I can believe when he tells me that I’m beautiful. I want a boy who tells me everyday that he loves me. I want a boy who has almost everything in common with me. I want a boy who holds my hand in the hall and writes me notes. I want a boy who doesn’t get mad at me when I mess up, who sees me as perfect no matter what I do. I want a boy who can accept my past and never judge me for it, and never use it against me. I want a boy who is charming and witty. I want a boy who knows when to be serious and when to be playful. I want a boy who can make me laugh, and would never make me cry. I want a boy who would never hit me. I want a boy who is patient and understand that my paranoia is because I think they are so great that they would never love someone like me. I want a boy who lets me hang out with him and his friends. I want a boy who supports me and all my geeky hobbies like chess, video games, comics, and computers. A boy who would never tell me I can’t do something or that I’m not good enough. A boy, who never questions why I randomly scream in quiet room. I want a boy who is smart and can have an intellectual conversation with me, where he is more involved that the occasional “yeah” or “Ok”. I want a guy who can debate with me without getting too aggressive. I want a guy who will never yell at me. Who will never say that I’m stupid or worthless. A boy who will never make me decide what we go do unless I want to. I want a boy who knows how to have fun. I want a boy who lets me play with his hair. I want a guy who joins in when I start air guitaring to no music. I want a guy who has goals, a guy who wants to get somewhere in life. I want a boy who is going to stay around. I want a boy willing to do anything for me. I want a boy that makes me feel like I’m just as great as he says I am. I want a boy who knows that I’m crazy, and loves it. I want a boy who isn’t afraid to talk about how he feels. I want a boy who will stay awake all night with me when I’m afraid to fall asleep. I want a boy that remembers my birthday. I want a boy that doesn’t consider me ‘one of the guys’ when I start talking about cars or sports. I want a boy that I can love without getting hurt. I want a boy to completely devote myself to. I want a boy that can be my everything. I want a boy that I can do all of the things he does for me to him. I want a boy that I can make feel as loved as he makes me feel.